Future Talks: Love, Dreams

My friend and I were talking about this for so long, but it was only now that I remember this future talks as I call it. In short, my friend and I were talking about finding love and getting married. I knew were too young to talk about it but we’d all get in there so I couldn’t see anything wrong with talking about it.

It was so funny that my friend (Jamu) and I prefer guys who were maputi. Hehe. It was simply because we wanted to have kids who look mestiza/mestizo. In my part, I really wanted that my future kids would be mas maputi compared to me. Hehe! Jamu, too, wanted it too. For me, nakakatuwa damitan yung mga kids na maputi coz they could wear any color coz pag maputi ka, any color would do good to you.

Hehe, we also talked about our dream wedding. Sharing the same dreams, we wanted to have a church wedding either Manila Cathedral or San Agustin Church.

Jamu even asked me about the groom’s attire. I wanted that my groom would wear a suit. Hehe. We’re still thinking about the style of our gowns.

One thing that we wanted was this: before settling down, we wanted to build a house first so that it won’t be hard for us na makisama sa mga in-laws.

Nga pla, Jamu and I talked about the wedding thing when we’re still in h.s. now, we don’t really talk about it coz I don’t want to talk about love coz it’s really hurting me now, I couldn’t understand why I tend to hope that there was still a chance for the two of us, I mean for that person who wasn’t meant for me.

A Letter To Someone Else

Dear YOU,

HI! It’s been 2 yrs, 2 months and 20 days since we’ve met. I was enchanted by you. Your face was so magical that it wanted to melt me all the way. You became my crush at an instant. In just one blink, you made me happy as if I was the most auspicious girl in this world. What made me more surprised was when I found out that there were common people between us. I wished that year 2003 never ended coz I didn’t want to be away from you neither lost in touch with you. I have thought of that because you’re going to college back then and I was just an incoming High School Senior.
Your birthday, nearing 2 yrs ago, was one of the most memorable dates that I remember. You invited me to your party, but I failed to come because I wasn’t sure if you really wanted me to be there. You became such a good friend and even a good person. I never imagined that there would come a time that you’d totally forget me. But I was wrong, I thought I was a friend to you. I never expected you to love me back. All I wanted was to stay as your good friend but you even took back the friendship. I once thought of how selfish you became. It hurts me whenever I see you around the university, just passing by me. It hurts me more to think that after all the words we have said, everything went on as if nothing existed between us. You were the only one who made me feel like I was the luckiest girl on earth. I have no doubts when it comes to you. I even wanted to be with you for the rest of my life. Although you wounded me a thousand times then and now; inside and out, and even if I defend you to my friends for the nth time, I always wonder why I couldn’t get over you. But all those that I’ve dream of you turned into dust. You were not the same person I knew years ago. Although I’ve loved you more than any other guys, I couldn’t fight for this one-way love because I knew you would never feel the same way no matter what. I have possibly loved you more than life itself but I better accept that it has to be this hard way than never knowing this one-in-a-million guy who changed my simple life into a colorful one, and that one guy was YOU ********.!

There’s Something New

Oww, the latest with me: I used to wear glasses now during classes, and whenever I use the computer. Just look at the pic. Hehe. That was taken beside Velasco Hall, just last Friday. Our university physician advised me to consult an eye expert or an eye doctor coz I have problems with reading. Oh well, I wasn’t sanay pa with glasses, soon, maybe, hehe. I’d be using glasses for 6 months to have my vision corrected.

What I want To have on my Kikay Kit

It’s only last year where I’ve learned how to really put some beauty stuffs on my face, (aLthough I used to put powder and lip gloss when I’m still in high school). MAybe, that’s the effect on being at an all girls school for a sem. hehe.

Before, I don’t know how to use an eyelash curler, honestly, I’m so afraid of using it coz I used to think that my eyelash will be cut afterwards. But now, I’m really enjoying using it coz people get to notice that I have beautiful lashes. Hehe! (kapal)

It’s Jho who taught me how to put blush-on. Hehe! But now, I don’t use my cheek tint coz I want to buy a new one.

Anyway, these are the things that I want to buy.
These are the kikay stuffs that I want to have.

1. eyelash curler (REVLON)
2. Waterproof mascara (Maybelline)
3. Blush on (REVLON)
4. Lipgloss (any imported brand)
5. eye shadow (any brand will do)
6. new foam for my VMV face powder

hehe, seems like I need to save a lot coz they are quite expensive. But I realy want them coz I have a sensitive skin. hehe. I just hope, I can save a lot before Lian’s debut (she already gave me the invitation!)

Lots of Things to Say

I wasn’t able to blog these past few days coz I have to do some school stuffs. So There! I was quite upset with my engltwo quiz yesterday coz I didn’t understand her question, but that was already done, I couldn’t do anything but to strive really hard!
I promised to do my best with that subject and to all of my subjects as well.

Talking bout subjects, I don’t have math yet. But I have a swimming class and that makes me so nervous coz I really didn’t know how to swim, I just hope, I’d learn how through the help of my kind prof! Hehe! She really seemed nice! How I wish all profs were like her!

I have gained friends already! And I was really thnakful with God. He was really good! I already have companions during my vacant unlike the first day wherein I have to text people listed in my phonebiook just to have someone to talk to.

WHAT HAPPENED LAST WEDNESDAY?

Mylo and I were talking outside the classroom when someone passed by! OMG! He passed by! I was surprised when I saw him! After all these years, I saw him again! I couldn’t really talk for a moment I really didn’t know what to do or what to say. I didn’t even notice when Mar arrived coz I was still thinking of that person. And this is what really shocked me: my prof in instud was checking the attendace. He was holding the master list of students. I was writing something on my assignment when HIS (the guy who passed by) was called, I, at an instant whispered this to Cha(my friend&seatmate) “Oh my! I know him! He was my crush before! I wasn’t ready to be his classmate”

But he doesn’t attend any of our classes in instud so I guess, he dropped the subject. I really didn’t know.

I told everything to Jamu because I used to go home with her every MWF, I really didn’t know how to explain this feeling! I felt like my heart keeps on beating faster! I really couldn’t explain! Why now? I already accepted everything!

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Well, I got my id already. Hehe! There’s no need for me to show up my receipt whenever I enter the campus. Hehe.
Haven’t seen Yeo. Mylo told me she saw him twice yesterday when we were beside the Velasco Hall.
I just hope I’d see him these days. Hehe! I like him whever he plays. (Yeah, only when he plays)

First Day!!!

I just started school yesterday. I decided to put things chronologically, so it would be clear for those who care reading my blog.

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Although my mom woke me up early, I didn’t seem to be at school early, hehe, coz ang bagal kong kumilos. I thought I’d be late for my first class, good thing it wasn’t traffic yesterday.

CRITHIN: I didn’t seem to like the subject. Our prof gave us 3 sample problems to solve at home and I couldn’t answer anything. I tried to visualize like what he said, but I couldn’t really figure out the answer. I don’t think I’d get the plus points that he promised.
VACANT: Lee and I met up so we’ve been together for a while, but for a bigger time, I was alone.
INTROSO: I was surprised when I entered the room coz I was the only girl who was there. Thank God, I wasn’t the only girl in that class, it only happened that I was the first girl to arrive. It’s only there that I found out that My was my classmate (oh, thank God again! coz I know her already for quite some time) and she was my classmate too in Crithin. Well, our prof seemed to be funny. But our assignments made me sad coz I don’t have the book he told us to purchase. And I don’t have the copy of the first 5 chapters either.
VACANT: Met up with my scho friends! Miss you All!
ENGLTWO: So-so. I couldn’t say anything at this point.
INSTUD: Interesting. =)

Starting 2006 with my New World

Oh well, the year of the dog just started a few days ago. I was very thankful with what God had given me last year. Although I didn’t really start it good, year 2005 still ended with a smile.

I just enrolled this morning. Finally, I was going to be inside my dream school De La Salle University – Manila, everyday. Unlike before, I only see it from a distance because I was a Scholastican then, but now, I was so happy to say that I would not only see it everyday, but be inside it for years.

School for begins tomorrow. Although classes started last wednesday, it would only be tomorrow that a new life would start in a new world. I just hope, I would be meeting nice people. Good luck to my very self.

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i would also be posting some happenings last december on my next blog. =)i would just want to rest for a while coz I have a class at 8:10.

=)til next time =)